It’s Been A While…
Okay, it’s been a LONG time since I’ve posted here. Or at least, it feels like it.
Life has been busy lately—between work, side hustles, trying to juggle bills, and staying on top of payments, it’s been overwhelming. On top of that, I’ve just been feeling off. Heavy. A little down. And honestly, it’s the usual combination: debt, recovery from gambling addiction, and just the general weight of trying to make things work at 40.
I’ve been beating myself up lately.
40 years old.
Still in $155,000+ of debt.
Still recovering.
Still trying to figure things out.
But I’m also still showing up. That counts for something.
Tiny Wins + Roommate Update
A small update:
I haven’t posted my roommate listing yet (ugh). BUT I did start cleaning and organizing my space. The goal is to have the room cleaned, prepped, and listed by August 1. That’s a win I’ll take.
I know once it’s posted, that extra income will help with monthly payments. It’s just been a mental block I’m working through—perfectionism, anxiety, overwhelm… the usual suspects.
A Podcast That Hit Me Hard
Recently, I listened to an episode of The Mel Robbins Podcast that really stuck with me.
Here’s the link if you want to check it out:
🎧 Mel Robbins Episode 251 – The Secret Formula to Achieving Any Goal
Now, I’m not the best at recapping or summarizing podcasts (my ADHD brain picks up on random gems more than clean summaries), but what I do remember is this:
She talks about claiming your goal. Not just thinking about it. Actually writing it down. Saying it out loud. Posting it where you’ll see it. Doing the reps. Taking the small, uncomfortable steps. Finding the formula that works for you—and sticking to it.
It was exactly what I needed to hear.
So here I am. Doing what she said.
Claiming the goal. Writing it down. Putting it out into the world.
My Big, Scary Goal
I am claiming this here and now:
I will pay off $155,000+ of debt within 5 years.
There. I said it.
Is it terrifying? Yes.
Does it feel impossible sometimes? Also yes.
But that’s not going to stop me from trying.
Here’s the math breakdown:
📉 $155,000 ÷ 60 months = $2,583.33/month
No, I don’t have that kind of money lying around.
But knowing that number gives me a target—something to aim for with every side hustle, every budget cut, every listing I post, and every extra client I take on.
My New Affirmation
“I am worthy of a debt-free life, and I am capable of creating it.”
That’s the energy I’m stepping into.
Not shame. Not guilt. Not failure.
Just progress. Just reps. Just forward motion.
What’s Next
I’ll keep updating here, and I’m committing to posting more regularly—because this blog, this space, helps keep me accountable. It reminds me I’m not alone. That someone else out there might be walking a similar path, or silently rooting for me.
If you’re on your own journey—whether it’s debt, addiction, healing, rebuilding, or all of the above—I see you. You’re not behind. You’re not broken. You’re still here.
Let’s do this together.
🧡 Drop a comment, send a message, or share your goal. I’d love to cheer you on, too.
